I am a creative soul. Not a day goes by that I don’t think creatively.
I’ve always gotten strange looks when my mind goes to the most extreme. If my boyfriend is five minutes late I become convinced that his car spun out on the freeway last night and he died in a fiery crash. There are always a billion different scenarios running through my head: a million different ways that the day could end.
The thing is I don’t know who I am. I feel lost. I just know that I want to be happy. I was talking to an ex a few days ago and he is getting his life together – going after what he wants. And here I am two years later and I am in the same place.
I’ve been standing still for two years. The only thing that has changed is my bed. I’m not OK with that (but I am OK with the bed).
The only way to change is to take action. To do something. Because unfocused energy is better than doing nothing. So what do I want?
I want to:
- Submit polished work into poetry competitions
- Sell my photography on etsy
- Sell used books
- Write a blog
- Write a book
- Become a travel writer
- Apply to all the jobs
- Take photos of Route 66
- Go to grad school
- Paint more
- Do what makes me happy
Are you a creative soul?